Ash Wednesday 2011

Have mercy on me, God, in Your Kindness,
in Your Compassion blot out my offence.
O wash me more and more from my guilt
and cleanse me from my sin.
My offences truly I know them:
my sin is always before me.
Against You, You alone, have I sinned;
what is evil in Your Sight I have done.
A pure heart create for me, O God;
put a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me away from Your Presence,
nor deprive me of Your Holy Spirit.
Give me again the joy of Your Help;
with a spirit of fervour sustain me.
O Lord, open my lips
and my mouth shall declare Your Praise.

Psalm 51 
translation selected for In Conversation with God volume 2 for Ash Wednesday

knocking on His Heart

Matthew 7:7-8

“Ask, and it will be given to you;
seek, and you will find;
knock, and it will be opened to you.
For everyone who asks receives,
and he who seeks finds,
and to him who knocks it will be opened.”

and then He turned to ME and said
“what, deep in your heart,
do you ask Me for?”

what are you seeking?…
and how are you seeking this?
are you seeking and asking?
…are you asking and seeking?

“are you knocking
on the door of My Heart?”

Knock on the door of My Heart now.
Seek Me.
Ask Me….now.

…as Peter,
hours after Jesus’ Crucifixion,
remembering His Words from
John 13:33-38

I remember how Jesus spoke to us before he was taken away and killed. He told us to love one another.
He told us that He was going away,
but we couldn’t come with Him.

I was so full of words, insisting
“I will follow You anywhere”
…so brave…all talk.

Hours later, we were lost sheep without a shepherd, fretting as if He hadn’t told us what was to happen.

Fully expecting that I would betray Him, He still said “you will follow later”.

In my thoughts and in my dreams,
He asks me again “will you lay down your life for Me?”

I have seen Him insulted, beaten, scourged and stumbling as He carried His Cross.  He looked at Me as they crucified Him…as I cowered from a distance.  My sins put Him there…still He returns mercy for my shame, my betrayal.  Deep in my own thoughts, my hesitation, my shame, I’m stirred back to the moment
as He asks me again.

 “Will you lay down your life for Me?” 
He awaits your response…answer Him.